What bugs you? What things get under your skin? For me it is... Water bugs. They are so fat, ugly, creepy ,and crawly. Killing a water bug sends me to tears.
It was a regular day. I finished eating my oatmeal and went to use the bathroom. I was there when I felt something brush the bottom of my foot. I did not think anything of it because I was wearing a long skirt. I looked down and to my surprise and disgust found a water bug on me! I immediately shook it off of me. I did not have a sandal to kill it. I ran out the bathroom telling my mom about the hideous bug. He was so big and dark brown and gross! My mom took one look at him and said that I had to kill it. The last time I had to kill a water bug, I will confess that, I broke out in tears. My little sister said don't cry just kill it. I put some shoes on then grabbed another shoe to meet my match.
The thing I hate about water bugs is that after you hit them their antennae and bodies still move. Right when I smacked the shoe down our bathroom rug fell on top of it. I now had to get the bug from underneath it. I was just picturing that bug going crazy and crawling up my hand. I was completely terrified. Then, as you guessed it the tears started to flow down. I tried calming down, I went to dry my eyes and wipe my nose. I walked back to the bathroom repeating "Perfect love cast out all fear." After that my tears still cruised down my cheek, but I was determined to get it over with.
I finally got the rug that hid the bug on the dust pan and I rushed to throw it in the kitchen garbage can. Ohh I forgot I also put on dish gloves too, just in case. I was so relieved that my battle was over. Afterwords, I was covered in goosebumps. I have no idea why I react so emotionally, but I should not let my fear get control over me. Every time I see a water bug, I get a painful punch of fear in my stomach. It is easier said then done to quote Bible verses. To live a life of fear shows a lack of trust in our savior. I know I will never like and enjoy a water bugs company, but I should not be filled with fear when I see them.
After my killing victory I went to lay down (I am not exaggerating I really get riled up when it comes to them.) I opened my Bible to Isaiah 41:10 it reads:
"So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."
I can not say I am 100% free of fear but I fell closer to that number than before!
I totally share in your disgust of water bugs..of all things creepy and crawly actually.
ReplyDeleteIsn't God good that even in a situation like this He uses it for His glory? I rejoice in knowing that you called out to God in that very moment..may that always be your first reaction in ANY given situation.